Sugarcubes or spoons

I had an amazing few days up Norfolk, its good to get some clean air.  However like anytime I go away, when I get home I have a little while where I drop physically. This time was no exception.

I’ve been tired since I came back, but yesterday I was hit with the full fatigue.  Tiredness you can work through, tiredness is inconvenient but workable.  Fatigue is not,  your whole body is like it is encased is setting tar. Everything is virtually impossible to do. Even writing a sentence is like you have written a huge book. 

There used to be a saying that I’ve used all my spoons up, in theory that saying is very much alive, but apparently the lady who wrote about the spoon theory, doesn’t like it being used.  So I’ll try and put it the best way I know.

Imagine you have got 10 sugarcubes, each sugar cube is used for a task you do, a sugar cube is used for showering or bathing, another sugarcube for some is used for brushing their teeth, for some a sugar cube maybe used to get completely dressed, others a sugar cube is used just to put on socks alone.  A sugarcube can be gone just by boiling a kettle and making a coffee, already your sugarcubes are depleting. Thinking about just eating, preparing and cooking takes up all your spoons and you’ve done nothing in the way of going out or a hobby. 

Sometimes you have to borrow Sugarcubes from the next day, which reduces the amount you have for the next day, and sometimes you borrow too many sugarcubes.   This is what I done, I borrowed too many of my sugarcubes from several days, so paid for it yesterday. I had no sugarcubes, I had borrowed all I could have and the body couldn’t work, so it was a bed day. Sleep was all I could do.  I have only a very few sugarcubes today, so it’s a case of accepting that I need to recover and build my depleted borrowed spoons.

It’s not great when you have no or little sugarcubes left, but it’s part of my life that I do struggle to accept, but at the same time at least I’m lucky that I have a good family who understand and accept that I have to rest and that I can’t do anything on some days.

Have a wonderful day xx