RIFE MACHINE

I have a Rife machine called Spooky2, sounds weird, but actually it makes a lot of sense. It works on quantum physics and was called Spooky after Albert Einstein did an experiment and the way it worked was spooky.

I only can afford the very basic spooky kit, so mine runs on remote. You put a fingernail in the small black holder that attaches to the machine before running the programme on the computer.

The link for spooky2 is here http://rwrd.io/w70fr12?c

So what successes have I had? I no longer have tinnitus, I’ve had it for over 30 years but I ran the programme for tinnitus and no longer have it. I used it for morgellons and I had no more skin crawling for over a year. I need to do a another run on it. I had a bad flare of triginimal neuralgia, so I went on spooky and programmed Trigenimal neuralgia, with 2 hours I was no longer getting the every 2 second lightning shocks that Triginemal neuralgia gives off. I have a lot wrong with me and I don’t use it just for myself, so ever problem is going to take a while until I can afford another remote set. I’ve used it for my husband for heartburn and tooth pain and it’s helped hugely. I’ve used it for my cat when he got attacked and had to have life threatening surgery, I used healing and regeneration and even the vet was amazed how quickly he recovered. The dog has also been on there for a bad tummy and sickness. I’ve used it on family and friends and it’s helped them.

A starting essential kit is around £325 I would like to get the plasma at some point. There is a company in London that uses a Rife machine to cure cancer, it charges £30,000 and someone on the next door neighbour app had used it and it was the plasma that spooky uses and the gentlemen no longer has cancer. If you read the success stories on the site you will see that it really works.

With so many illnesses it’s going to take me years, but I’m hoping I’ll be able to afford the scaler or plasma at some point.

With big pharma making so much money from people who are ill, we have to do what we can to help ourselves. I drink cider vinegar to help me with my kidney stones and I feel we have to help ourselves as much as we can. Sometimes we need extra help, but I try very hard to now keep away from big pharma pills.

Keep well, keep safe and keep researching xxx

Cancer scares

So since December 2nd 2022 I have gone and going through another cancer scare. In the last 6 months I have had 4 different cancer scares.

My first on 2nd December 2022 I was told it looked like I had Multiple Myeloma, the 9th December they then thought I had Throat cancer, then last month they thought due to lichen sclerosis I may have vulva cancer, thankfully I had none of them, though the vulva cancer is a high possibility in the future, so have to have 6 monthly checks or any problems I have to be seen straight away. My fourth cancer scare is now, two weeks ago I saw the doctor, and was referred to breast cancer clinic, tomorrow I find out.

Since Dad died I have anxiety attacks regularly, with my sister in law dying Jan 2021, then Dad dying June 21 and my brother being diagnosed with cancer has made me scared of cancer. Since December I have had anxiety attacks up to 4 or 5 times a day.

My brothers girlfriend has just had to have a mastectomy due to breaat cancer and I am petrified of having cancer. The fear of the vulva cancer and now the possible breast cancer has made me feel really unwell. I have tried to keep my mind busy, but it’s in a brain fog most of the time.

Resin Makes

Well it’s a damp morning, and though not cold it certainly doesn’t feel like a spring day, other than the birds are singing away.

Been busy doing a lot of resin pieces, though due to my neck and back being so bad at the moment, I’ve not really been doing any for just over a week.

So I’ve made a few resin makes, I hope you enjoy what I’ve made. I’m very much a beginner and mistakes have happened.

Diabetes type 2

I had my first diabetic review Friday. I was nervous because I wasn’t 100% sure what to expect. I knew I’d need a blood test, and thought I would have the finger test one as well.

So what happened.l?

First of all I was asked date of birth, and then booked in for part 2 of my review in a month’s time I went to put the appointment card in my pocket, only to find out I’d got my trousers back to front. (Problem.with elasticated ones) gave me and the reviewer a giggle. Then I has my BP done which was high, followed by a blood test (I had to have extra blood tests due to losing hair, not that you’d notice because I was blessed with really really thick hair, now it looks like most other people’s hair) well as usual my blood didn’t want to come, and I felt sorry for Liz, she has been doing my blood tests for years and is one of the few who can get to my deep-seated veins straight away. Sadly today was not that day but after another try she found one.

Next my height was done and my weight, I knew I was overweight because I could feel more than a inch, well quite a few really, however the results showed I’d lost 3lb8oz this week, so felt chuffed with that. Finally I had to lay slightly on the couch, shoes and socks removed and my feet checked, thankfully all fine there. That was it. Nothing to worry about and very straight forward.

I continue to use Second Nature (a NHS diabetes course) and glad I’m.already seeing results. It’s not easy and I have been naughty on one of the days and screwed up with my food, I was in bed virtually all day (a bad day, with a cold, that affected the whole of my body, my RA was dreadful and my triginimal neuralgia had kicked in) I had ready made microwave lasagne which my husband had brought to help me, he’d done a long shift and I was grateful for anything. I couldn’t hold water down, so was drinking lemon tea which contains sugar.

Anyway, I’m back on track and not being hard on myself. I’m learning a lot from second nature and if you’ve been newly diagnosed like me, I recommend them. The read a day articles that they put up are very interesting and help you choose the right lifestyle without being pushy.

Anyone who knows me will tell you, I don’t do what I’m told to do, if you are pushing something, I will be defiant. I was dreading second nature, I thought it was going to be like a class. It’s not, it’s easy to understand and not too hard to follow. My coach, Carly answers any questions and even was able to help by guiding me to one of their articles about emotional eating. I eat when the pain from my illnesses is too high and I can’t cope (this is a lot of the time) it’s helped so far

Anyway been awake since 4, so going back to sleep.

Have a wonderful day, and thank you for reading my post x

Second Nature

Having been diagnosed with Diabetes type ii, I am actively trying to hopefully reverse it.

I start a course on Monday called Second Nature which is run by the NHS. I’ve brought myself a smart watch that came today, so I can watch my steps, heart and ha ha sleep (what is that????)

Friday I attended a diabetes meeting that was done by our doctors. I found it very interesting and learnt a fair bit about the disease and also how our cholesterol is also important.

So yesterday I started 5 days of fasting for 18 hours to give my pancreas a rest. How am I finding it? Not too bad, apart from the evenings. I don’t normally eat in the morning anyway, so starting eating at 12 noon is not a problem, but stopping at 6 is hard. However I done yesterday and am currently cooking some new potatoes and eggs for my salad nicoise and also doing stewed fruit so I can have it with Greek yoghurt. Today I can do these because I am having a good day. My worry is when my body doesn’t have a good day and struggles to even move, then that is when I hit the real challenges.

Anyway I am looking forward to kicking this one disease into touch hopefully. Apparently it is very hard but not impossible to reverse diabetes and you have to keep on top, especially when you’ve been on steroids (prednisone) for years and in particular a very high dosage for a while when I had Giant Cell Ateritis *GCA However I believe I can reverse it and keep it controlled.

Have a wonderful day xxx

The Salt Path

For Christmas, my husband brought me Raynor Winns The Salt Path. I was looking forward to reading it, having seen the reviews on Between the Covers TV programme. It interested me because Moth had an incurable illness and told his life was going to be shorter than expected. Having several illnesses myself, I wanted to read this book, knowing Moth had defied Doctors, something again I have done myself, I felt it would be good to read how someone defies odds stacked against them.

I’m a big believer that we can fight things either physically, mentally or spiritual. First we have to work out what our body or mind need. Then we break it down and work up. Like most people who have serious illnesses I hit depression and can hit some seriously low points, but I kick myself up the bum and start anew. Anyway going back to the book. Having been screwed by the justice system ourselves 15 years ago the bigger companies can pay someone to fight for them, where most individuals cant and they know this. This is where I could relate again to Raynor and Moth. However, I take my hat of to them, I couldn’t do what they did and walk the coastal path.

I’m still reading the book so can’t really give my full feedback on it, however after what I felt was a slow start and obviously the book was going to be depressing, but I found it a bit too depressing at first, almost giving up on the book, I’m glad I stuck with it, I’m now really enjoying it and the people they meet.

It’s different from my normal books, I love SAS books from the likes of Chris Ryan, Dan Mills, Ollie Ollerton, Jason Fox, Billy Billinghan, Chris Hunter etc, I also love the classics DH Lawrence, The Brontes, Jane Austen and then I like what I call my soft easy to read books, Derek Tange, Miss Read, Lesley Pearse, Iris Gower. So The Salt Path was something different for me, and it’s good to change and read something different. I would recommend it, though like I said I’ve not finished it, it’s a good read, and I’m thoroughly enjoying it.

Etsy

I’ve got my son getting married to a beautiful Canadian girl next year. She is a lovely beautiful and fun girl to welcome into our family, and proud to be calling he4 our daughter in law. They got 3ngaged just before Christmas and we were all thrilled.

Now we have to start finding money to help where we can for the wedding, so with the cost of everything going up, I decided I would start my etsy again in hoping to start saving for the wedding.

I love making things, from knitting sewing, resin, model making etc, and everyone kept saying I should sell what I make. So what better way than when we need to make some money.

I’ve put a link to my etsy, if you would like to give me an honest opinion of what you think of the prices, the items please let me know. I’m always grateful of constructive feedback. Excited to share the latest addition to my #etsy shop: Handmade aquamarine green acrylic angel decoration https://etsy.me/3CV1g0M

I’ve been felting today and making acrylic items. Today the items I made are for myself or family. Just fun items to make.

My etsy is

Been a while

Christmas is my absolute favourite time of the year, Carols, lights, delicious smells all of it is wonderful. This Christmas was a different start.

Our decorations go up on 1st December, 3 trees (OK one is only 3ft) and the music starts playing. The smell of mince pies fills the air and the house looks cosy and bright. Anyone who has been to our house at Christmas loves it.

However, this Christmas wasn’t quite normal. On the 2nd, I went to see the doctor after having enough of the pain in all my bones. I had been told Covid would take me about 6 months or more to get over, so kind of expected post 8 weeks that it could be the problem. However I needed help, the pain was waking me up and I was struggling to move just a few yards without excruciating pain.

What I didn’t expect after being felt everywhere to work put the pain, was to be told it possibly was multiple myeloma cancer. I went home and sat there, not really taking it in, after all it hadn’t been two years since we lost my sister in law to cancer, then 5 months later my dad to cancer and then my brother thankfully who is doing amazing, getting diagnosed with cancer. So I gathered with that much cancer I surely would be OK. However looking it up, I certainly understood why she thought I had. I had all the symptoms.

9th December, I needed to see the doctor again, for 9 weeks my throat had really hurt, and looking in the mirror I saw thar it was no surprise I had problems swallowing, one side had completely sealed off part of my airways. Before I could tell the Doctor, she gives me the great news I don’t have multiple myeloma, tests came back negative and the xrays though were not good news, were not cancer I have a fracture wedge!!! And my spine shows that osteoporosis has really got a hold of me, and I will need a op, well better than cancer. I was also told that I had got diabetes, but that I would need another blood test to confirm. Yippee, still no cancer though.

After she has told me all this, I tell her I had actually come for my throat. She presses everywhere, asks questions and then says I’m sorry but I think you have throat cancer!!!!! OK officially pissed off now. I decide to see my own doctor who I hadn’t been able to get an appointment with. Nope he agrees that the doctor did the right thing, my throat had been swollen for over 9 weeks and it needed to be seen.

22nd December, the ENT consultant phones me up and after talking to me tells me he doesn’t think it’s cancer, but he can’t rule it out until I have a endoscopy. The relief to both my husband and I was huge. Though it wasn’t being ruled out, it was definetly a hope.

Both my husband and I felt we could enjoy Christmas. Busying myself with wrapping, I suddenly couldn’t see properly from my left eye. At first I thought I’d got a migraine, but it soon became clear it wasn’t. Typical of me, it happened just after 17.30. Thankfully after 3 phone calls to different opticians, all who said I needed to be seen within 24 hours. Specsavers booked me in for the morning. I was warned I may need an emergency op, so Christmas was looking miserable again. However thankfully after seeing the optician and tests done, I was given the all clear and asked if I’d been stressed lately 😅 well just a tad lol.

Christmas was amazing, my husband made it incredible. I wasn’t looking forward to, but he had done me a wonderful fun stocking, and my Christmas presents were fantastic, I felt so spoilt. Provably one of the best Christmases I’ve ever had.

Saturday, I saw the ENT consultant who was so wonderful, after checking me over and examining my nose and throat through a endoscopy I was given the ALL CLEAR, sjogrens has caused problems, along with long covid. However, all of that is nothing compared to be giving the all clear of cancer

Wishing you all who have been kind enough to read this all the way through,a Very Happy New Year to you all xxx

Understanding

I’m not sure how to write this, so apologise if its strange. A blog for me is like a diary, it’s not meant to upset, offend or anything like that. It’s just my personal life and my ups and downs.

Unfortunately I’m finding I’m having more downs than ever before. I am now frightened for myself. I don’t want to live with pain, shame and no self worth. I don’t want to leave my family who I love unconditionally, but I don’t want to have this emotional and physical pain anymore.

I haven’t slept for months, I get roughly 3 hours, sleeping tablets aren’t working, breathing exercises aren’t working and I don’t know how to sleep. I can’t eat properly, I have a sjogrens flare which has been with me far too long now. I’d had a tooth extraction which has caused so much pain, it got infected and the swelling won’t go down. I think I maybe having GCA back and I know from experience that I’d have to take a high dose of steroids a day and become like a balloon. I’ve never come down fully to my old weight pre last GCA. Due to the prednisone.

I have fought off so many off some of other illnesses, I’ve kept them at bay, but there is four that is tipping me over. My sjogrens, my vaginal atrophe (apologise to anyone reading this for the information), GCA and the pain in my lungs and back which is doubling me over due to severity. I can only stand for very short while. I’ve been keeping all my others at bay.

I have a overwhelming feeling no one really likes me, they say nice things and tell me how wonderful and kind I am, but the truth is due to nerves I talk alot. I now don’t go out if I can so I don’t talk to people. That way they won’t feel uncomfortable around me. I am gradually pulling away from everyone I don’t want to cause them pain and its easier if they don’t feel they need to think about me.

Knitting and making jewellery to sell for charity is the only thing I’m interested in. I’m not a great knitter but I do make some lovely dog and cat blankets and toys. My jewelry is literally just putting jewelry findings together and giving them to the Maggie Fleming and Karass Sanctuary so they can get a little bit of money. There is so many genuine kind and wonderful humans there that look after the gorgeous animals.

I’m sorry that I’m struggling, I’m sorry that I can no longer function properly anymore. My husband thinks I may have a deficiency and that’s why I’m so bad. My nails are curling under and I’m exhausted, I’m not talking tired, I’m talking genuinely exhausted, every movement is painful, it’s like I’m in quick sand that’s got tar added to it. I’m so exhausted from my health and from life.

I’m tired of life, tired of pain, tired of feeling ashamed of who I am, my home and everything. I’m tired of people being nasty to each other and tired of being the joke.